A game of catch

About once a week, or on a good streak-once every two weeks I play catch w/ God.  Well not catch I guess.  More like I throw the ball to him, and then run and take it back.  So like a 2 year old's version of catch.  I get these terrible headaches and neck pains.  Literally for the last week I have gone to bed and woken up in some sort of pain.  I have wonderful drugs that ensure I can sleep which is awesome, until I wake up.  Some days I vow to do everything I can-eat right, exercise, stay active during the day, ect.  And yet I still get the pain at some point during the day. 

I feel like/ and often do cry out to God:
(Psalm 4) Answer me when I call to you,
      O God who declares me innocent.
   Free me from my troubles.
      Have mercy on me and hear my prayer.

But I know I also need to have faith that God can and will take away my pain.
Psalm 27:5:

    ⁵ For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
      he will hide me in his sanctuary.
      He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

So-I'm starting a new game.  It is like the last hole on the put put course.  I may not score a hole in one, but when I do get it in the hole-give it to God fully-and don't reach my hand in to try and get my ball back.  I will get a prize much greater than keeping my golf ball.

Game on!  God I give you my pain-I will depend on you to take this pain away from me.  You will place me out of reach from this pain.


P.S.  This is not to say that I am going to stop physical therapy but I will not depend on it like I will God.  

baby Christian meets sin city

So today wraps my first (intentional) trip to Las Vegas.  I really had no idea what to expect; but really wasn't prepared for the barrage of sin that I would meet and be faced with.  I began to battle the sin with an overall attitude of disgust. Only to realize that simply made me upset, not to mention feel awful snooty.  It took a day, by myself, walking the strip to realize what I should be doing-praying.  I prayed for the city, for the young women who were in the 'industry', for those that found themselves in trouble in the city, and for the men who passed me on the street-I thanked God for keeping me safe in the city.  So it took a while, but I am now at peace that Vegas just may not be for me-but I can still pray and praise in this city.
Thank you Lord for reminding me that I can ALWAYS pray.  Lots of prayers, baby steps for this baby Christian.     

I resolve

to continue to pray and be thankful for:
-those less fortunate.  And I mean in every way.  When I can look past the messy house, the ache in my neck, my homework that won't do itself and my job that isn't my favorite, I realize.  God blessed me with: good health, my soul-mate, a family to keep me balanced, friends across the globe, a job, the house I always wanted, amazing fall weather, and most of all the forgiveness that comes through Christ.  I am so quick to be down on something, that I really have to take an extra look and realize, how much God has blessed me with.  It's AMAZING!!!!
     - I need to pray for those less fortunate, and to not pity them, but to pray that they be blessed in the Lord's love through whatever trial they may be going through.
     - I am also resolving to be better at acts of kindness.  ah...I almost listed all the things I'm working on.  bahaha....almost got me satan.  I'm going to resolve to not boast my acts of kindness.
- I am going to remind myself to be thankful for the situations, thought they are not my favorite, they still have many good qualities.  For example, work-I generally feel like I'm babysitting my 58 year old boss.  However, my job is sweet: I get to come and go whenever I want; I tell my boss what I want to do; I work right across the hall from my darling husband, so we get to eat together and hang out a lot more than we normally wold. 
- I'm praying for patience.  Oh man do I need that.  I guess what I'm really working on more is turning everything over to God.  For example our current journey to add to our family.  Man did I just want it to happen first time out the gates!  But I'm turning it over to God.

May your will be done, in my body, my job, my life and others.  Lord you provide all that we need.  Remind us that every day.  Thank you-for the pain in my neck, I know I'm still alive.  For my messy house-I can afford a home.  For my homework, you have given me education.  For my adult daycare job-I am appreciated and trusted.  And for everything else, may I be subtly reminded to not take anything for granted. 

I resolve.....